Since writing this book I am now 18 months clean and sober and Patrick and I are still together, I know it's a whole different world and a totally different way of life living the life of an addict but I'm here to tell you never give up hope never give in to the darkness there is help out there and no matter how lost or how hopeless things seem keep fighting the good fight God is with you God is close to the brokenhearted it is only when we have our spiritual awakening and cry out for God to come and save us that we can't control our lives anymore we need him then we truly find ourselves. It doesn't matter where you go or how many times you have been, don't quit, you make the world a better place just by being in it. Remember, God first and everything will fall into place.